Monday, September 16, 2013

May 27, 2013 9:44 am

It's time to lie down in the hammock in the tipi. The blackflies don't like being inside. I really don't like it either, but I really needed to lay down and rest my weary body.


 

I sat by Ben's bridge for awhile and noted how the bridge just goes onto a tiny island now. It's so peaceful over there, and shady under the alders, too. I'm so blessed.


 

I used my long handled foot clippers to remove all the grasses growing around each of the tamarack trees Willem and I planted a couple of years ago. I wonder if it was last spring. It may have been. I'm glad I put the stakes in to mark them, the little thin wood ones which I replaced with the road stakes last month. I tossed out the thin ones, to be picked up from the roadside ditch later. I was surprised at how many of them were still growing. They'd put on a few inches of growth last year, too. Two of them had died. It took awhile to figure out where the tamarack sticks were, as they were quite little.


 

A pair of tail pounding phoebes just flew into the tipi. One flew through it, the other came in and immediately turned around after sitting to look at me for a moment. I wonder if they are neting in here. Could be! How special is that! I have my iPod camera handy, just in case they come back.


 

I put some of the dead trees that had slid off the side of the tipi back on to cover up the fabric. The sun is shining through them, making lovely forest shadows on the side of the white fabric. It looks like I'm in the woods from here! One day the tamaracks will create a privacy forest around it! Can't wait!


 

It's so neat to work towards things, to create spaces, to tend and cultivate my gardens. The marsh marigolds I dug up and planted around the tipi are still growing, much bigger than before, even. I clipped the grasses around them. I should put down landscaping fabric to give them a bit of an advantage.


 

I'm glad to see some of my basketry willow is also growing, shoots that I didn't know were here are doing well. I'll let them grow a bit till they have an inch thick trunk and then I'll start cutting them back all the time. Well, I'm already cutting them back and replanting the grown parts.


 

It's so peaceful in here. There are some blackflies with me, but they aren't bothering me much. I wear my long socks, long skirt and long sleeved tops to make sure there is less of me exposed. I love the temperature. It's about 10 or 12 out here now, I think. I like it cooler cos I don't have to take off layers and get exposed to the bugs!


 

I should probably take myself over to the cedar post place and harvest more bark. There isn't much coming in over there that has been cut during bug season when the bark is easy to remove.


 

I love to write. I was thinking lately of writing for the local paper again if they'll have me. I like to do photo journalism, feature articles. I was asked on Saturday about that, why I stopped writing. I do love to describe the things around me, the way the grass bends at the top and bounces and waves in the wind.


 

Here comes the pileated woodpecker. But it's chirping for a long time. Is that the flicker then? I forget. I think the woodpecker chirps when he flies, and a bit when he's at his hole. Someone just drove slowly past. I wonder if someone will stop to pick up my wheely walker chair. They had better not!


 

I hear a nearby duck call, I think. I love hammocks. They are the best way to lie down and to be comfortable! They don't make my back hurt like lying in my bed does.


 

I even have a makeshift outhouse down here. I have a little routine with it, keeping it clean and tidy, too. It's important to have such amenities if you are going to be happy in a place.


 

I sometimes feel sorry for the neighbour whose property line my tipi is near. They are not home much, so I'm not concerned about it, but when I come down and play my violin at 5:30 am, It did occur to me that I just might be being a royl pain in the butt to them! J He's the one that asked me what 'we're going to do about that tipi'. I didn't know what he meant. So he said it was an eyesore. I was dumbfounded. Finally I responded, "Well, it's on our property!" That was the end of that conversation. J


 


 

Another day in the Palmyra temple today

May 16, 2013

Thursday, Palmyra NY

I had a very nice sleep on Jean's couch. It's sunny and I think it's warm outside today. I am so glad that I am still here and can attend the temple again this morning. J)))). This afternoon I'll go see my friend's shop and perhaps go walking in the sacred grove, then I'll go back to the temple for the evening.


 

I am going to see if I can print out the ordinance pages from familysearch.org so I can do some of their work.


 

Willem and I have been asked to meet with the Toronto temple president, so hopefully we can do that on Saturday or on Friday evening.


 

I am so grateful for my temple recommend. I have watched my mind and the things that bug me, or my sins yesterday. I have to learn to make new neural pathways so I don't react the same way as I have been. I really did a lot of judging yesterday. Not a good thing! I'm so glad I saw it and was able to repent of it before it got lodged in my soul. I need to be filled with light, not darkness! J


 

I read something about the law of consecration in a conference talk. It was about how much better it is to go work with 20 people on a service project than to work alone, at times. We need that fellowship. It was interesting how important that fellowship is.


 

I am heading over to the sacred grove now to walk and play my violin before people show up to be there. Gotta be in the 9:30 session, too! J

I’ve done what Thou commanded me

May 15, 2013, Wednesday 11pm


 

I thought it would be interesting to see what I would say at the end of the day to the Lord if I were going to report what I'd done which He had commanded me to do.


 

I read the scriptures as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I forgave the imperfect people around me as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I repented for judging people as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I attended the temple today as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I took and did work for my own family file as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I studied Thy doctrine as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I cultivated cheerfulness where there wasn't a smile as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I attuned my heart to the spirit to be taught from on high as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I wrote in my journal as Thou hast commanded me to do.

Because I prepared a garden in the tipi the other day as Thou hast commanded me to do, Willem was able to plant the soaked beet seeds.

I loaned some money as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I paid attention in the sessions as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I searched my heart as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I leaned myself towards understanding the mysteries of Thy kingdom as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I shared my food as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I prayed sincerely as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I did the temple work for those people whose names I reserved, quickly, as Thou hast commanded me to do.

I am recording my spiritual experiences and they hand in my life by writing in my journal as Thou hast commanded me to do.

May 15, 2013, 7am at Jean’s in Fishers, NY

I wondered how much I am willing to sacrifice for the gospel. What are the things that I am not willing to give up for the Savior to follow Him? What am I attached to? What are the sins that I hold onto?


 

I love having my scriptures as well as all the manuals and general conference reports on my iPod. It is a wonderful thing to do a search on there and come up with all sorts of things I'd not be able to lug around to search through.


 

My favourite scripture is D&C 88:45. The earth rolls upon her wings, and the sun giveth his light by day and the moon giveth her light by night, and the stars also give their light, as they roll upon their wings in their glory in the midst of the power of God.


 

Well, it's one of them. I love the imagery of that one! I also love D&C 88:40:

"For intelligence cleaveth unto intelligence, wisdom receiveth wisdom, truth embraceth truth, virtue loveth virtue, light cleaveth unto light; mercy hath compassion on mercy and claimeth her own; justice continueth its course and claimeth its own; judgment goeth before the face of him who sitteth upon the throne and governeth and executeth all things.

"He comprehendeth all things and all things are before Him, and all things are round about him and he is above all things, and in all things, and is through all things, and is round about all things; and all things re by him and of hi, even God, forever and ever."

"D&C 88:63 is wonderful, too. There is a scripture like it in the New Testament, too.

"Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you, seek me diligently and ye shall find me, ask and ye shall receive, knock and it shall be opened unto you.

"64. Whatsoever ye ask the Father in my name it shall be given unto you, that is expedient for you.

"65. And if ye ask anything that is not expedient for you, it shall turn unto your condemnation."

And it goes on

"66. Behold, that which you hear is as the voice of one crying in the wilderness—in the wilderness because you cannot see him—my voice, because my voice is Sprit; my spirit is truth; truth abideth and hath no end; and if it be in you it shall abound.

"67. And if your eye be single to my glory, your whole bodies shall be filled with light and there shall be no darkness in you; and that body which is filled with light comprehendeth all things."

In Matt. 6:22 it says "The light is the body of the eye; if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.

"23. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!"

I don't like being filled with darkness, of any amount. I do have less of it than I did before, as the light is showing up the darkness and I'm able to repent of it as I find it. I don't suppose I really see much of it. I mean there is more darkness in me than the Lord has opened my eyes to seeing at the moment. Baby steps, thank heavens!

I listen to conference tapes and ponder the teachings of the Law of the Gospel contained therein, but I don't read the scriptures so often. I've heard that conference talks are as scripture, so I focus on them. There are many scriptures that I love. As I read that one above, vs 67, I feel that I should pray that I may be filled with light, that I can see the darkness and root it out of myself through repentance, that I might comprehend all things. It's a tall order, but it would be so good for me to be rid of my pockets of darkness. The light causes so much joy.


 

The Lord's sacrifice for me was so great. I cannot comprehend even the smallest bit of what he suffered for me. When I am not filled with joy, that is painful. Such a minor suffering in comparison. I am so grateful that He has taken my sins upon Him that I may be clean. Repentance is such a wonderful blessing. Weaknesses certainly do make me humble! Some of them do. Others that I haven't worked on don't make me humble at all yet. One day.


 

I can't wait to go back and spend the day learning in the temple again today.

Monday 7:30 am

May 13, 2013


 

I decided to go to Palmyra to the temple today. I wasn't sure partway if I should go to Maryjane's tonight and then to the Toronto temple tomorrow in Brampton. I decided I'd go to Palmyra to the temple today, then to Jean's overnight and back to the temple all day tomorrow.

I thought I needed a spiritual boost, which was correct. I was late for the 11 am session, but arrived around 11:30 for the initiatory session. Afterwards I sat in the celestial room soaking in the abundance of the bright spirit.

It was good to get back on track and see where my life was deviating from the Lord's path.

Monday, May 13, 2013

7:38pm

I'm at Jean's near Rochester. We have had a great time this afternoon. We went digging ferns…I played the violin while she dug. We went shopping for some clothes for me to wear to the temple tomorrow as this one is sort of dirty.


 

We went to KFC for dinner and ordered what I thought was a bucket of chicken, It ended up being enough for ten! So I guess there are lots of leftovers now! I'll have to take them to the temple for everyone tomorrow!


 

I feel so comfortable here at Jean's. She's much like me. She's a collector and her house has lots of neat things, quite full, actually. I feel so at home in a cluttered place! It's so much nicer than a clean and tidy place where there's nothing to look at and ponder.


 


 

May 12, 2013

Willem and I went for a walk to the bridge this morning, stopping by at the pond as usual. Lovely.


 

On the way back up to the house, along the highway in the part that gets cut by the township, thre were some new little tamarack, spruce and balsam fir seedlings. Willem pulled them up for me as I cant do it and the ground is quite saturated with rain at the moment.


 

In the house I put them into water in containers. I was surprised to see the tamaracks, as I hadn't realized we had 'harvested' any of them.


 

Church was good. I liked the talks and the spirit in the meetings. It was a good day.


 

Afterwards we went to Alida's where Ben and T were already waiting for us. We visited for a little while then went home to pick up Abe. He was still having a party with his friends in the tipi.


 

They had slept over last night and slept in the tipi around the campfire.


 

We went out to a Mexican restaurant. What a nice time we had together. They are such a great family I have! I love my children. Daniel talked to me online as well.